God’s presence can feel like a mystery. Have you felt that too? I’ve felt myself weave in and out of my understanding of His presence–the engulfing of His being to a space that feels hollow and often times lonely.
In the hollow and distant, it can be hard to grasp who God is and what His plan is. If you’re anything like me, you’ve questioned your efforts towards Christ or even His pursuit of you. When the feeling of His presence is gone, it’s easy to fall back on fault, whether from God or myself. And let’s keep it real, my pursuit of God isn’t perfect and it isn’t always consistent (hello distractions from the world!), so the blame could easily be shifted on what I am and am not doing. But friend, He isn’t distant and He’s not pointing fingers. I mean, thank goodness! His mystery doesn’t equal distance or retreat. Instead, it’s something that can be cherished and enlightening.
Okay, so if He doesn’t remove Himself from us, how can He feel so estranged at times? Great question girl! What if we reshifted perspective and readjusted our eyes so that we can know Him more intimately and uniquely in the season we are in?
I want to reiterate this again though before we jump into the latter half of this blog–the suggestions below aren’t checklists and they don’t make you a better or worse Believer. You are not measured by how you perform or how you welcome Him in. Sometimes, the season is hard and it feels dry and that’s okay. If you dive into the things below and still feel that distance, you are not doing things wrong. Seek to pursue in those seasons and let the seeds planted in those times bloom into something stunning later. He is constantly in pursuit of you no matter what–you are His beloved.
Alright, let’s open our eyes to him lady. Here are some ways we can shift perspective and heart so that the dry and vacant times can be times of refreshment and deeper intimacy:
Let’s talk to our Creator–Let’s pray for our world and the world, but let’s thank Him for who He is, what He has created and what He is doing (Psalm 100). Sometimes, it’s just easier for me to go into the routine of prayer or into the asks, but I want to know Him more through the beauty of who He is. Then, let’s keep it real with our Father. Toss out the mundane and routine prayer, and speak honestly and openly with Him. Pray out loud if you need to and lay it out. Express value and receive depth.
Pray boldly–Ask for awareness of the Holy Spirit. Then, be. Take time to sit in the awkward and dry air or the fruitful and warm air. Whatever the space holds for you, take it in and let yourself feel whatever it is before you.
Slow down–God doesn’t just welcome us in in the quiet, but in His creation. Sometimes I feel like I have to do the same thing over and over again to know Him and welcome Him into my space, but many times, He is beckoning me into His presence in other ways–how I know Him in each season doesn’t have to look identical to the previous one. Take in the little things. He shows us Himself in His creativity in humans (I mean, if you really take in each life, how incredible the detail and difference!), the detail in a leaf or the joy an animal brings us. Smell the roses, embrace the warmth of the sun on your skin, take in someone’s laughter or their role in your life. You can feel and know His presence in the daily routines, people and things.
He is pursuing you, no matter what you feel. He is always present and sometimes we just have to open our eyes to His ever present presence, whatever that may look like in that moment or season. When we seek Him in the ordinary and open our eyes to who is in the here and the now, a shift happens in our world. And whether we feel it deeply or not in that moment, we’re changed.
I hope that you open yourself up to experiencing God in the quiet and in the chaos this week, friend. I am in this with you.